To my best friend: You know how we always would joke about just quitting swimming? Just flat out walking out of practice and not looking back? Without thinking the other day, I saw the set and just flat out thought in my head “no” and grabbed my stuff and left. I literally have no idea why I did it I just kind of snapped and realized that I had absolutely no desire to swim anymore. I know you kind of went through the same thing and wanted to get your opinion on it. Like I don’t know what I’m going to do, I might try to talk to coach and see what happens if I quit, but he hasn’t reached out to me, so I don’t know if it’s worth it. Can’t I just walk away without receiving any consequences? I do know that if I go back today, he will give me a set of 4×200’s fly for leaving the pool deck. Anyways, if you have any advice on if I should go back and help me figure out my rationale for this situation please let me know.
To my parents: I just wanted to bring to your attention that the other day I did walk out of my practice fully intending to quit. After 10 years of swimming competitively, my heart was not in it anymore. I realized that I needed a break. I grabbed my gear bag and waterbottle and walked right back into the locker room. I have not been back to the pool in three days. I am not quite sure if I will be going back to swimming, however, I am planning to reach out to the coach and will ask him to meet with me. I hope you can accept my decision on what I choose to do. Swimming is still an important part of my life, but in that moment I had no desire to do the set given to me. I know you will support me with whatever I do, and will let you know what happens once I speak to the coach.
To my coach: Hello Coach, I just would like to apologize to you and the team regarding my actions the other day of walking out of practice. I would like to set up a time to discuss why I decided to leave without notice. I was also hoping to figure out a course of action after this situation. I am having trouble deciding if I would like to continue my swimming career and was hoping that you could give me some advice and direction. If you are willing to meet with me please let me know and again, I am very sorry for leaving practice without notice.
carina laukaitis 